The Holy Spirit echoed these words to me a week ago, as I ran in the dark, early morning hour. And it was more than words, it was a complete, peaceful feeling that settled deep within my heart. As I ran with the stars and sliver of moon overhead, I felt the comfort and reassurance of God’s gentle love. It was 4 days before another half marathon and my prayer became one of total surrender, as I asked God with complete trust and confidence to give me whatever was best for me. It is a rare, rare thing for me to ask this and to be completely fine with whatever God has in store. Rare, because, while I may ask God to take care of me, I often find that I have my own preference, my own desire for how I want things to happen. And that usually, unfortunately, is where I tend to lean. But, as I said that prayer, that morning, I knew without a shadow of a doubt, that whatever God had in store for me, it was the best thing for me. I knew it then, and by God’s grace, I still know it now.
Three days later, the day before the half marathon, I developed a bad sinus infection that only grew worse the day of the race. When I barely had enough strength to get up and make breakfast, I knew the race was out of the question. Die hard runner that I am, this was a bit devastating for me as I had been looking forward to this race for quite some time. But deep within my heart, there it still was. The comforting reassurance that God was taking care of me. It was there, burning bright, enveloping me in His love. I didn’t read my daily devotional that day. I stayed in my bed, barely able to function for the day. But the next day, as my head started to clear up, I did go back and read my devotional for the day before, the day of the race. And here was the message:
‘I am taking care of you. Feel the warmth and security of being enveloped in My loving Presence….If you could see how close I am to you and how constantly I work on your behalf, you would never again doubt that I am wonderfully caring for you…’
–Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
I am finding that this message that God so clearly spoke to me a week ago is still alive in my heart. As I struggle with future events, with what God’s plan is for me at this time in my life, with what my purpose is right now, God is still reminding me that He is taking care of me. Today was one of those days where doubt and confusion really took hold of me. So, I decided to pick up another devotional. It is one I don’t read very often, but sits at my desk, waiting for me to pick it up. I went to the passage I had marked as the next one to read. And here is what God said:
‘Trust me here and now. You are in rigorous training–on an adventurous trail designed for you alone. This path is not of your choosing, but it is My way for you. I am doing things you can’t understand. That is why I say, “Trust Me!”….Although you cannot see Me, My Presence with you is rock-solid reality. Find hope in Me, beloved, for I am taking care of you.’
–Jesus Today by Sarah Young
In all the moments of your life, God is taking care of you. Let that comfort you when you are clouded with doubt so that your heart and mind become as clear as a starlit morning, enveloped in His love.